Wow, it’s been a minute. I think I last wrote in February when I was taking a month off work. That was awesome. Before catching you up on everything that’s happened in the last few months, I need to tell you about the current state of things.
Surprisingly, I haven’t gotten married. Sad, right? Kidding, not sad at all. But I did do something a bit different for me. For the last five months I’ve been dating a 22 year old. After only dating older guys for my entire life, I decided to change things up. I kind of got tired of all the baggage and drama with the older dudes so I put no limitations on my dating app age range. And wow, that was interesting.
I don’t think I actually thought I’d go out with anyone that young, but then this dude messaged me. He’s an athlete in college and wanted to know more about swimming. He seemed cute and nice and very British, which I loved. I don’t think either of us expected us to date for very long, let alone for five months, but it was fun, easy, and so chill. Probably just what I needed. Anyway, he’s going back to London and we ended things. We’re still friends on very good terms, but we want different things in life AND HE’S ONLY 22! He doesn’t need to be hanging around with this old lady. Damn.
Soooooo…the relationship with this dude made me realize a lot of things about myself, which I think was good. I spoke to my therapist about some of the things and she said that I probably needed take a one year break from dating. A ONE YEAR BREAK. Damn.
I don’t think she’s wrong, but wow. She told me that a couple of months ago and since then I’ve deleted all the dating apps and just kind of waited for this relationship to end – which happened yesterday. And now I’ve officially made it through day 1 of no dating.
I’m saying that I’m one day clean and sober from dudes. And I’m looking forward to the next 364 days. Or however long it takes for me to deal with my sh*t. Obviously, if someone comes into my life and they’re everything I’ve ever wanted/needed, fine, I’ll go out with them, but I’m not pursuing dating and I think that’s so important.
In the meantime, I’m still working, swimming, and doing a bit of traveling. I’m most excited about competing in my first Masters Artistic Swimming competition, which is happening next month. I’m very nervous and we’re training hard. I haven’t been this physically challenged in a really long time and I’m really looking forward to it.
And because there were so many words in this post, here’s a picture for you:
That was from Sunday at my sister’s Pints & Paint event for her nonprofit. HAPPY PRIDE 🌈 🌈 🌈